Friday May 18th 2007
I'm not bringing the dirtiness out, just helping you find the freedom to live without constraint, to experience free of preconceptions. No rules, just living every moment for what it is, good or bad. When you live like that you realize it's all good, all part of the adventure.-Dave
final major project
Title: One Thousand Nine Hundred Twenty Kisses |Emails From an Old Lover
I gathered all of the emails that my exboyfriend has written to me during the short and longdistant relationship of ours. 1,920 kisses are all the number 'x' that he's written in the emails.
Each red page is to show the begining of each month. You can see during the first few months the spaces between the red pages are much more than at the end of the book. Towards the end of the book, there are less emails or no emails at all during the months.
Here is an illustration I took from a photo of us New Years of 2006. I remembered that night completely. After we had our New Years kiss, he told me that he could love me one day. Since moving to London in September, this was the photo that I pretty much looked at every night. It reminded me of the good times we had when life wasn't stressful.
At the end of the book, I wanted to have the strength to pick up the match and burn the memories I had with him. Since putting this book together, I haven't fully read through the book. I don't want to burn the book cause it turned out to be a beautiful art work to me. But I have burned the feelings out of my head. I have recently met someone new that has taken over my heart and thoughts. Unfortunately it was very short but very sweet. So another heartache to fuel my creative mind.
Do Re Mi
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to do...oh oh oh
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to Do
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to do
Do re mi fa so la ti do, so do
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to do...oh oh oh
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to Do
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to do
Do re mi fa so la ti do, so do
This moment.
Kate Walsh-Tonight
You don't know about me
And you don't care what affair still haunts me
And you don't know what it is about me
And I don't care, I don't care if you love me
Tonight we'll be whoever we like
Tonight we'll leave our troubles behind
Tonight in each other we'll hide
Tonight will be alright...
And I don't know about you
And I don't care about the girl behind you
And I don't know what it is about you
It makes me want to run and jump inside you
Tonight in each other we'll hide
Tonight we'll leave our troubles behind
Tonight we'll be whoever we like
Tonight, tonight will be alright...
You don't understand why my heart feels bad
From the love you hold out in your hand
And you offer it without command
I just don't know why I can't get you inside,
Why I need you tonight...
Cause you don't know about me,
And you don't care how this affair will break me.
And why should I care about you, if you don't care,
You don't care that i love you?
You don't know about me
And you don't care what affair still haunts me
And you don't know what it is about me
And I don't care, I don't care if you love me
Tonight we'll be whoever we like
Tonight we'll leave our troubles behind
Tonight in each other we'll hide
Tonight will be alright...
And I don't know about you
And I don't care about the girl behind you
And I don't know what it is about you
It makes me want to run and jump inside you
Tonight in each other we'll hide
Tonight we'll leave our troubles behind
Tonight we'll be whoever we like
Tonight, tonight will be alright...
You don't understand why my heart feels bad
From the love you hold out in your hand
And you offer it without command
I just don't know why I can't get you inside,
Why I need you tonight...
Cause you don't know about me,
And you don't care how this affair will break me.
And why should I care about you, if you don't care,
You don't care that i love you?
My Street
Ah...spring break is almost over. Uni starts back up again on monday. 71 days countdown till I head home! Yeah! I'm well excited. All I want to do is read a nice book on venice beach with my pasty skin getting burned!
Woop Woop!
wow. it has been long. Happy Easter. The weather is getting much much better. Me happy. I feel like a true londoner, trying to find every inch of the sun when i'm outside! I guess its time for a bit of spring cleaning. Uni is starting back up again. boo. hopefully time will fly very fast and i;ll get to be in sunny la very very soon!
I've got a cold.
again. I've started back up interning at Canoe again. Decided that if I'm not looking for a job, I should get my ass up and at least do something! I've got two weeks to work on my Final Major Project. Haven't done shite for it. I have to have 2 full sketch books filled and a personal diary. shit. shit. shit. I think I'm taking procrastinating a little too far. I can't believe that I have to only be at Canoe at 9:30am, and I still manage to be late. Oh well, thank goodness that they're not paying me cause I probably would of been fired. It's nice to walk through Brick Lane to get to work. I seem to always find something new to look at on the way (wish there were fit boys walking ahead of me).
The monkey lost his balls
Sara, Jack, and Nic. aw...what a nice photo. wonder how long ago it was. i look very healthy, i've got a tan, my hair is cut short, must be fooking ages ago!
I'm a doofus
funniest thing happened today. i was rushing to catch the train, the door closed on my face. i'm not joking. my hands and face smacked the door! then i realised that the bottom of my zipper was caught between the door. so i tugged it loose. caught the next one. when i was leaving out the station, i was about to zip up my jacket then realised that my zipper was gone. ripped off my jacket! what sucked as well was that i had a little monkey trinket on my zipper, cost me bout 4 quid. that, was gone as well. poo. so, i have a broken jacket. oh well. that made myself giggle for a couple mins.
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